I see alot. i see good, bad, love and hate. Ive seen so much that i no longer wish to look. I wish my memory to be wiped clean. Ive witness lies, deceit, slander, abuse, neglect. Ive witnessed caring, patience, hope and acceptance. But i'm tired. Tired of everything.
I'm tired of answering for myself, im tired of answering to you. Im tired of being the bigger person. i'm tired of being the antagonist too. I wanna go away so i no longer have to see the world. i dont wanna be apart of it. Im tired of politics, debates, conspiracy theorys and finger pointing. Im tired of everyone categorizing others. Tired of people making rules to prevent you from living and loving as you choose. Im tired of taking the blame for things ive never done. Tired of owning up when i screw up. Tired of what people think of me. Tired of the misconceptions, the accuracies, the blunders and fallacies. Im just so fucking tired.
Tired of waking up. Tired of trying to live up to an expectation. Tired of not achieving my potential. Tired of the scrutiny, judgment and apathy that follows. Im tired of fighting. tired of caring. Tired of being left out. Im tired of my words falling on deaf ears. Im tired of petty lies, brutal honesty. Tired of people getting their priorities all wrong. Tired of being the joke. Tired of telling the joke.
Im tired of stagnation. Tired of being everyones punching bag because they dont like what they see in the mirror. Im tired of not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Im just so fucking tired. I dont wanna look, i dont wanna watch anymore. If there were anything left in me i'd let the vultures have it, because ive had it. I'm tired and i give up. Youre on your own.
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