Observation 3: he just walked away

Fighting his demons he obtained many scars. Scars of victory. Fighting his enemies he triumphed. All he knew was fighting. Fighting the voices, the anger, the anxiety. Fighting the inevitable. The rewards always worth it. Always believing it was over and then another fight. After many lesson learned he tried and tried to do the right thing. To be the better, stronger person he knew he could be. Life kept wearing him down but he hung on. He swung bag, even if he didnt connect. He wanted the world to know he didnt have any quit in him.
Many times there would be several opponents surrounding, closing in and attacking at once. He couldnt breathe, see, think or act rational. He did what he could to survive. He did what he needed and limped away with bruises, lesions and burn marks on his soul. He tried everything. Prayer, meditation, excersize, forgiveness. Still he was struck down. He kept moving forward, against the wind. against the grain.
I saw him today. tired, morose, sullen. defeated. he made the mistake of looking up. He finally saw that there was no end. He should have kept his head down and kept pushing adversity. The look of despair was foreign. lost, dead inside. He picked up some dirt and let it run through his fingers. He turned and watched it disappear into the air. He then did the same. He just walked away. Never to be seen again.

observation 2: I'm Tired.

I see alot. i see good, bad, love and hate. Ive seen so much that i no longer wish to look. I wish my memory to be wiped clean. Ive witness lies, deceit, slander, abuse, neglect. Ive witnessed caring, patience, hope and acceptance. But i'm tired. Tired of everything.

I'm tired of answering for myself, im tired of answering to you. Im tired of being the bigger person. i'm tired of being the antagonist too. I wanna go away so i no longer have to see the world. i dont wanna be apart of it. Im tired of politics, debates, conspiracy theorys and finger pointing. Im tired of everyone categorizing others. Tired of people making rules to prevent you from living and loving as you choose. Im tired of taking the blame for things ive never done. Tired of owning up when i screw up. Tired of what people think of me. Tired of the misconceptions, the accuracies, the blunders and fallacies. Im just so fucking tired.
Tired of waking up. Tired of trying to live up to an expectation. Tired of not achieving my potential. Tired of the scrutiny, judgment and apathy that follows. Im tired of fighting. tired of caring. Tired of being left out. Im tired of my words falling on deaf ears. Im tired of petty lies, brutal honesty. Tired of people getting their priorities all wrong. Tired of being the joke. Tired of telling the joke.
Im tired of stagnation. Tired of being everyones punching bag because they dont like what they see in the mirror. Im tired of not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Im just so fucking tired. I dont wanna look, i dont wanna watch anymore. If there were anything left in me i'd let the vultures have it, because ive had it. I'm tired and i give up. Youre on your own.

observation 1: the human ego

Welcome to the first ever Ceiling Cat blog. I see and observe alot from the ceilings of the world. I watch you masturbate, i watch you drink milk straight from the carton even though you've got mouth herpes. I watch. I compile, and then i let loose. I am an honest cat. Which could be very bad,or surprisinly complimentary. Depending on what i see. What ive seen as of late.....not so good.

I have been seeing so much abuse of animals by humans. Most of it goes unnoticed and when they are caught they get a slap on the wrist. ( id like to give them a slit on the wrist.) Humans seem to think they are better than everything and everyone. They feel that certain laws of nature dont apply to them. They feel animals are beneath them. You stab a man to death and you get a life sentence. In some states you get the death penalty. But you human cocksuckers give animals the death penalty for the "crime" of not being wanted, neglected, abused, tortured, and unloved. You punish animals for being the victims of your ego. Your cold hearts. Because your puppy is no longer a puppy and he had the nerve to wake you up at 3 am cuz he had to shit. So you dropped him at a shelter, or kicked him, or worse.

Animals are not disposable! they have every right to be here ( if not more) than us. The world does not end with the human race. the world doesnt revolve around a single one of you. Ive seen pig shit stuck to a goats beard that is more significant than the human race. And our society tells us that its not as bad if you kill a cat. Pay a fine and you go home. It is that ego, that self centered cuntiness that makes me want to destroy all humans. You take for granted the uncondition love that animals provide. They dont care if we're rich, poor, fat, short, black, asian ( well maybe asian because they will totally eat a dog like it was a twizzler). Humans are the only species that judge on those things. Your spouse will leave you if you gain 50lbs. a dog wont give a shit so long as you feed him, rub his belly and scratch his ears. So let it be known, that i have put the human race on notice...........
If i see, hear of anyone i know hurting an animal ( food doesnt count.) You will pay twice what youve made the animal pay. I dont care about the consequence because i am a human and ive got a fucking ego. so you drown a cat, I will rip the skin off your stomach. Make a swimming cap, swim you out to the middle of the ocean, staple chum to your mangled torso and let the sharks do what they do. I will send the photos to your friends and family and leave whatever the sharks dont eat hung on a flagpole so the whole town knows what will happen if you fuck with an animal. If you drop your dog off at a shelter becuase his fur doesnt match your new carpeting i will kill your children while you watch. I will then get your wife pregnant, force you to watch me raise our kid with your wife, then have the kid cut your throat with a sharpened rib bone.
Im fucking sick of humans. Their egos, their lack of respect for nature, the earth and its wonderful offerings. The world will go on without you cunts! and i will see to it that it does if you dont wise the fuck up!
Ceiling cat has spoken :)

my second blog site.

I have split my blog site. Deadrivers will consist of poems. Ceilingcat will be things that i have observed in my journey. as the ceiling cat watches all of us. This will be a no holds barred tear a person apart blog. if that bothers you do not read when i post. Ceiling cat has seen so much and is highly opinionated. Nothing is off limits to ceiling cat. If you are offended by anything in the world do not read the ceiling cat blog as no subject is safe. ceilingcat just wants to shed light on the ills of the world with a no bullshit approach. Nothing will be candy coated. So if you enjoy that kind of stuff please feel free to click whenever you see a link to Ceiling cat. and remember " ceiling cat watches you masturbate"